Mindset

I guess after going to Usana, I've realized some things. Well, quite a lot if you ask me. I'm just beginning to see things more differently now. The vibe you portray affects the people who you are surrounded by. So, if you act that way, things will come to you that way. If you want it for good reasons, it will come to you in a good way, but if you act sour and rotten towards it, it will come back to you that way. In life, you can have whatever you want, all you gotta do is try, pursue it, just want it, but dedicate yourself to it, don't give up. You only give up when you no longer have any hope or faith. I can relate what I've realized to almost everything. How I act, towards my family, my friends, my girlfriend. Maybe if I didn't sound like I didn't wanna be there when I really did, people wouldn't get that impression. Now I know what you mean when you say that I act different, or that I make you frustrate because of the way I sound. That's why, I'm learning to appreciate what I have, rather than caring so much about what I don't, rather than pointing out the things that look bad or seem to be bad, why not appreciate the things that look good, or the things that you have that others don't. Things don't come easy, if you want to keep it bad enough, you'll fight for it, no matter how many times a problem comes your way. I'll still fight, best believe that, I won't give it up. Don't let all the problems, and drama drown your vision, don't let it stop you from seeing through it. I look passed everything, I look pass the problems, frustration, uncertainty, and all those doubts, and see what is truly wonderful. Us at our best. If I can't take you at your worst, I don't deserve to see you at your best. And it's the same with you. You don't appreciate something until it's gone. And that's why I give myself time, everyday to appreciate and think about the things I have. If you don't appreciate it, you won't have it anymore. I'll bring down my selfish pride, put aside my ego, I'll listen and change for the better. Yeah, it's random. I've been thinking about it though, maybe if I'm more positive about things, we wouldn't be in so many fights, and everything would be so much better. Realize it. I did.

This is my first weekend without her, she's at camp. And I miss her already...don't tell her I said that though.