10.30.2008

Can't lie

I just wanna be with youuu.


<3(7:44:57 PM): we have something in common?!
<3(7:44:59 PM): :D
<3(7:45:00 PM): lol.

Stuff have happened recently, at least I don't have to hold it in when it comes to something bothering me. I let you know wsup. This week's weather has been odd, Gloomy days in during the AM and once Lunch time comes around the sun comes out. Well, it was like that for awhile, but now it's just straight up sad weather, it rained today. I fell asleep watching Arthur, or Hey Arthur or whatever. I thought it was hella late, like 9 or 10 but I look at the clock and guess what, only 6. Daylight Savings Time. I think I'm going to be dressing casually or business-man like every Wednesday. I want the extra credit points. Tomorrow is Halloween, it's gonna rain though.

The week is almost over, and I have yet to spend one day with you. This feels weird, I guess I'm just used to spending two days out of the week with you, but this time 'round, I get none. I'm looking forward to next Wednesday though. Hopefully what she wants and what I want to get accomplished will be. Morning time, and Movie time.

B4L, my broski.

10.28.2008

The Good Things

It's real, I've never been so sure of anything, but I'm sure of this.
"And what we got is solid to hard to break and we've got it's too hard to take gonna tell everyone that you know We Gon' Last."
Notebook, it's cute. Waking you up in 10 minutes babylove. Halloween coming up soon.
You'll be my #1, stick with it no matter what, ups and downs, you'll be mines, and I'll be yours.


Post Office today, shipped some stuff, too lazy to blog, need to finish Chem homework.

B4L.
I'm down, down for my brothas.

10.26.2008

Scarwy

Yesterday was pretty chill. I woke up and saw my little cousin Kym chillin with Molly. I just walked around, ate a bagel and drank some juice. I got bored so I played NBA 2K8, babe called after so I talked to her for a bit. I noticed that I still had her Hawaiian skirt thing, from Hawaiian day, so I told her that I was going to "call her back in a few minutes" so I went to drop it off at her house. SURPRISE! Her parents were coming home so I had to split, I said bye from a distance and then headed home. I showered, then noticed that Megan, Katie, and Co Vi were there. They biked from their house by Independence all the way to my house. shooot, Dat came home around 6:15, he changed, took a deuce then dropped me off. Met up with girlfriend and Vivian, then walked to Club Blood to meet up with the rest of the heads; Kevin, Brian, Angelica, Rowena, Michelle. Rhodan came later. I think the first one was the "scariest" we walked around, it was cool, ate Curly Fries and Breadsticks? Nob Hill! I went on Drop Zone or Drop Tower for the first time, shooot not as bad as I thought. Grizzly was cool Survivor was a pretty interesting ride. Delirium, Loggers Run not as great, Mazes were interesting. Finished around Midnight, waited for everyone to get picked up. Babe stayed with me, we talked while waiting for Deangelo. Met up with them, Jennica and Andy were in the car. Went to Quicklys right quick got some drinks and then headed home. Dropped babe off then me. went home, washed up, went to bed and called the boss.

*Thanks De, you're the man. Can't tell you how much I appreciate the favor.



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yaaay, that's everyone.


Babylove<3.

10.24.2008

Breakthrough

It's nice, how we're able to talk about problems we both have in a different but better way. No shouting, frustration, arguing, urges to just hang up. I like how we handle things. I still don't see splitting as an option. You aren't the only one who's holding onto this. You're not the only one who has realized that we've been through too much to just drop it and leave. You have my heart, and I intend to keep it that way. Straight up, on the real, that's wsup.

* I still cherish every moment spent with you.


I'll Keep, Cherish, Adore, Appreciate, Hold, and Love you, and what we have. Just know that.

10.22.2008

Straight up

" You know it's worth it when all you do is try "

Yeah, it's not gonna be easy, it's not gonna be all smiles and laughter all the time, but that's what you gotta fight for. We've made through 6 months of ups and downs. How would it be so easy for me just to let go? How would it be so easy for me slip? Yeah, I'm sorry if and when I make you mad. I don't act the way I do because I'm losing it. Sometimes though, when you say "Sure, I guess, Whatever" it just makes me feel uneasy, I'm comfortable with you enough to let you know straight up. But, if you're trying to throw everything at me, trying to see if I'd really stick to my word when I said that I'm gonna stick with you then go ahead, I'll prove to you, with and next to you, is where I wanna be. It's just sometimes, you act like you don't want it. I told you I don't wanna fight and fuss with you no more, it brings eachother nothing but uneasiness. I still feel the same way I do. Splitting up, is not a factor in my head. Get through it. I'll let you know straight up, if I didn't wanna be here, I wouldn't. "No Obligations" remember?

I'd never say anything that I don't mean. Do you remember that story you told me about your English teacher? 10-11 years? If you really want it, you're gonna fight for it. You gotta have to want it. I'm fighting for it, I've always been fighting for it, because I've always wanted it. It's worth it, you're worth it. Just know that.


Met Molly's boyprend today, he's cool. Ate at Subway's, went to Frozo's and then chilled at the usual park with my girlfriend. I walked home after, then Mom picked me up at Golfland.


Please, I just want it to be you&me. still, like how it always was.

10.20.2008

Cope

understandable. doesn't mean we're gonna get married or nothing, we're just staying us, staying strong.

It's because we both want to, it's not a one person thing.

You&Me, still. just want you to know that. <3Babylove.
Be & Stay with. I don't want it any other way. I honestly don't.

slow dance, iSuffocate, sang to eachother.
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*Homecoming shoes came in, but guess what? too late -______-
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F/S btw, TRUTHbeTOLD. PM!

10.19.2008

Right Place, Right Time, Right Person

Homecoming Dance was yesterday and to my surprise it turned out a lot better than I had imagined.

I'm up early because babe left me, =| I'll probably go back to sleep soon, but I'll tell how things went down yesterday.
met a lot of new heads, well not new, but familiar and got better acquainted. PSAT's woke up early, finished early, around 10:30 ish or so. went home, napped for an hour, woke up, ate, played Saints Row again for a bit then baby called. I got ready around 4, showered and all that got ready and chilled for a bit. babe came with Vivian and her parents + grandma =X scary stuff. met up with everyone at Kevin's house. met some new heads. Wsup Andrew (myAIRnikes) Matt (mattland) apparently I met up with the dude before to sell a belt buckle, haha. Raymondo (airRML32) wsup dude. Justin (RiceBowlSole) and Russell (banzon) Oh Kevin Catap too (catap) all ISS heads, hahaha. dance was pretty interesting, I had a nice time with babe. saw Lama Locc, haha he got kicked out, too freaky. chilled, Denny's was nuts, hella heads, almost half of the diner was occupied by people that came from Homecoming. when we finally got our table there weren't enough seats, so I manned up and asked if we could sit in the booths, luckily we were able to, and the bonus was we got to order first. =) babe and I got burgers, Russell got some omelette and Michelle got sandwiches. chilled after, got picked up around 1 and then headed home. called babe as soon as I got into bed and that was my night.

Homecoming; guess what the first slow song was. " Suffocate - J. Holiday " amazing yeah? I didn't think it was at first, but right when it was clear, I hella looked at babe, it was cute. Looked at her the whole time we were slow dancing, singing the words back and forth to eachother. it's more than just a song, it's our song, it's us."6 Months? Damn, well you can't break up with her now, well I wouldn't" exactly what I meant in my previous blogs. it's not an option, breaking up that is. hope I'm not the only one that feels that way.

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No-Homo.

*picked these up today, needed some beaterweaters.
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10.16.2008

Not an option

Even when we have those fusses, arguments, fights, I don't see letting go of everything we fought so hard to keep as an option. Fix it, you guys been through worse times, why can't you guys hold on to this now? That's how I see things.

Ground rules; only do it if you want to, it's not obligation.

6 Months, we've been through a lot, and not once have I even a little bit ever thought of letting go. Remember when I told you I couldn't picture myself without you? It's still true, still babe. I won't lose sight of what we have just because of a dilemma we have. I got you, you know it, and I know if I was busy doing anything, that you'd help me too, but I'm not doing anything, so the least I can do, is support you in any way possible. No second guesses, no turning back. It's you and me, M+C, that's how it supposed to be. Me, who was thought to be a guy who wasn't relationship capable, and you who couldn't stay committed and maintain a long relationship. But look, look how things have changed, for the better, all for the better. Once it comes to that person, things change, see things in a different way, completely whole different feeling. And it's that feeling I get, everytime I'm with you. No being uncomfortable, being our complete selves when around eachother, no need to impress, no need to do anything special. Maybe once in awhile to spice things up ;) sike.
"What if you didn't care as much as you did?"
"What do you mean?"
"What if we were like other couples? And weren't able to pull through?"
"Then there wouldn't be an us..."
But, I'm thankful because I do care so much, that I do choose to hold on to you rather than let you go. I'm thankful everyday that I have you, and that's why I refuse to let everything that we've fought to hold on to, everything that we built since day one fade away. All the things that we're about, still, even now, things just keep adding. It's a legitimate legitimacy :P I hope you know that babe.

"I'll be here for you before all of it, and after all of it."
"What about during?"
"And during too."
"But you didn't say it! =("
"You should already know that...=)"

Iheartyou, MarielAshleySoriano.

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*Babe, I'm sorry if I made you late, I hope you didn't get into trouble =X

10.14.2008

Distant

fuck, deleted other blog on accident. I just need to know wsup, that's all. "together or not just whatever" wow. that says enough. I have nothing else to say.



Tofu, we got you, we're not gonna let you get in trouble for it by yourself, you're not gonna get in trouble, your family is in enough problems. we got you, we all got you.


Ne-Yo - Mad

10.12.2008

For: You

The things I do, I do them for you.

chilled with them boys Khoa and Deangelo today. Deangelo bounced early, his "mom" came and "picked" him up and "made" him go home. after I just chilled with Khoa, had one of them deep conversations. poured guts out to eachother. each time I have talks with him, it makes me realize why. Why I do the things I do.

you just have to find that girl, that girl that is able to break through all the walls you have up, and get to know the real you, the you that all your boys know. I've found her, Khoa's found her, Deangelo has also found her.

+ I know you don't have time for that shiet, that's why I don't fuss around and pour that stuff on you, you're busy, you have a lot of things to do, that's why I'm not going to put you in that situation anymore. I won't do that to you, pinky-promise.

10.10.2008

Not enough hours in the day

show it. for all the things done you people go and take advantage of what's done, and do the complete opposite of what was tried to be accomplished.

I've been supporting, helping babe out in everyway I possibly can, just tryna ease it down, and helping her carry the wide load she has on her shoulders.

Say those things only if you mean it.
It's just sometimes, out of nowhere, I don't know why, but I wanna why, even if it's after just seeing you. I miss you. Sorry, I just do. Why though? Even if I know you don't miss me, I still miss you, because of my missing you, not because I know you're missing me too. I don't know, I really don't know why. No, nothing has changed, you&me M+C, still, just like how it's supposed to be. and if it has, it's only been for the better. right Babylove?

10.09.2008

Yearning

eyes met, more than usual
seeing you less, it's cool though =|
amazing how much I miss, when I just saw you
my name is Chris, and I'm all about you
quick glances in third, it was something new
just looks no words, a cute thing you do
no doubts, this is real, something legit
you can honestly tell, by the way our hands fit.
-I miss you.

saw you more than usual today, it was nice, looks during 3rd, saw you during Lunch. that's all I'm gonna get, for now. <3


" This is foe my dawgz, foe my dawgz, foe my dawgz, foe my dawgz, foe my dawgz "
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10.08.2008

Reassurance

school was alright, I've starting to notice that 2nd period is becoming more and more boring everyday. I try my hardest to stay awake, but still no go. Chem was alright, Test in 4th, Lunch Jonathan and Jesse were playing with the camera, took random shots of random people hahaha. 5th was alright, 6th was alright too, after deliveries, I got to be Boss and sit in Ms. Roy's seat because she bounced for lunch. after chilled then headed out with Babe to the park again. finished up her English project then just chilled, came home and helped her organize things. I hope that this whole seeing so much of you one day, and a little of you the next lasts for only awhile, not from now on, I don't think I'll be able to take it. both her and I dislike the fact that that's how it is now. just the beginning of us though, trUSt. everything's still here, please believe that. I pinky promise, that I'll support you no matter what you do, I'll have your back through whatever it is, and be there with and for you whenever you need it. I'm here, and I'm yours Babe. you just mean that much.

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Tofu's taking it pretty hard, hold your head up bro. He'll Rest In Peace. We're here for you man.

10.06.2008

From mine to yours, half a year

I woke up with energy today, why? Our 6 Months. I'm thankful, I know I've been saying it a lot lately, but even know, I'm still so into us, so into you. school was cool, babe surprised me...she gave me a plate saying " Mariel hearts Chris " in gummy letters, it was cute, under the gummies was the sunset silhouette picture of us, she also gave me this book, homemade, pictures of us, that alone was enough to get me going, no need for flashy gifts, came from the heart, that's all that mattered. <3

"be with me"
"what do you mean?"
"I want you to be with me"
"are you sure?"
"like, official, offical? you and me? all the way?"
"no doubts, I just want you to be with me, all the way, officially you and me"

[Wow, I wrote a whole hella but then it got erased -____-]
6 Months, it's nothing less than amazing. Amazed, and so thankful that I have you. It's legit, everything felt, said, done, straight from the heart. Everything said is meant and all feelings are true. I'm sticking to you, babyboo. My one&only. No one else will do, no one else is capable, allowed, to possess what she has. The things that we've been through, all the ups and downs, when all hope seemed to be lost, we always managed to pull through. We're stronger than ever, and I'm not letting this go. I don't know what being in love is, or love for that fact, but this tingly sensational feeling, light hearted, indescribable, this feeling I get only when I'm with you. trUSt it. I'm hers, and I'm proud to call her mine. My lover, absolute best friend. We've gone above and beyond anything that either of us have done. 6 months is just a start, we got this babe. You're so amazing, the things you do, the things you say, the way you make me feel. Don't know what this is, but it's new, brand new, never felt before. I'm in love, with none other than Mariel Ashley Soriano. That's it, that's all I got to say. Always being able to pull through when we're in the worse situation possible, never allowed to slip to the point where we were done. From the very start. Suffocate. Everything means so much. And you babe, mean everything. Not going to have to worry about any other, because it's you, the one that I want, the one that I need, the one that I gotta have just to succeed. You're the only one, that has my heart, and I got chu babe, from the very start. Hold the keys to both your locker and your heart. I heart you. No doubts, no second thoughts, 106%, my all, to you. Just need you, I don't wanna be without you, just wanna be with you. First person I hear when the sun shines bright, and the last person I talk to when I sleep at night. Perfect Team, she's the girl of my dreams. so much more...6 months, just a start...

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Happy 6 Months, love.

10.04.2008

Legitimate Legitimacy

I miss you, that's all I have to say. I couldn't sleep, knowing the fact that you weren't on the other line. may sound whack, childish. but that's how I am, how we are. I sleep with ease when I know she's there. she means a lot, my girlfriend, my partner, my team mate, my lover, my best friend. I'm thankful to have you. lifts my spirits when she's around me. 6 months on Monday, we got this babe. who knew? that this Christopher Thinh Ngo could fall in love. not love, but in love. I'm in love. that word has been tossed around, people say it in meaningless ways as if it's nothing. I say that I'm in love with confidence, no second thoughts, no doubts. 106% all of it.


Liou's House and Frozos with them boys today. Khoa, Michael, Cuong, Leon, Brian and Andy. it was coo.

AM Kidd - Electric Heart.
Tofu's myspace song, dope.

10.03.2008

The best feeling in the world

" You wanna know what the best feeling in the world is? "
" Hm, What? "
"This right here, with you. "

143 babe.

school was cool, 1st period's presentations were rather fun. did absolutely nothing 2nd period, just sat there, had a sub. 3rd was alright, I think I'm learning. 4th, sub, did absolutely nothing after writing babe's letter. 5th was chillax, Blackwell gave us 15-20 minutes of free time after talking about The Debate. 6th, I did absolutely nothing...holy crap.

after school, chilled with The Brothas, got some ice cream then called babe. she was about to go home! luckily I called before she left. met up with her, chilled by the baseball field for a moment then headed to the park by her place. talked, took pictures. *hopefully Sunday won't be rained out, I wanna help her with her project one time. --just like the first time I heard you say it, same feeling, that rush, that tingly feeling.

"Can you believe it?! "
" What? "
" Monday!? "
" We made it! "
" No doubts "
" And I'm still not tired of you... "

feeling more and more comfortable with one another.

Comfortable –adjective
1.being in a state of physical or mental comfort; contented and undisturbed; at ease:

always.
try to get some pics up later.
I'm absolutely crazy about you Mariel Ashley Soriano. I'll tell the whole world. real talk.

10.02.2008

walk

I don't have much to say. one side you show me this, other things I find out on my own completely change my first perspective. screaming, yelling one time, happy, smiling another. enjoy your old, whack ass traditional lifestyle. I'm not gonna complain, I'll hold it in, and act as if nothing is happening. I don't need this shit.

I'll just walk things off.

on the plus side, I spent more time with babe than usual today. spent most of lunch with her, walked around, talked to her. just being there for her when she needs it.

them boys came by, Thomas is leaving to Alabama tomorrow. Gluck nigga.
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back to homecoming dress shopping. for who? Me! duh. take the load off, I got chu babe.

10.01.2008

Introduction

I had something to look forward to after school today :D. let's just skip right to it. met up with the the Brothas after school, went to Mary-Anne's car and she drove us part way to Juice City. apparently today was the Junior's/C/O 2010's Fundraiser @ Juice City. it was barely 15 minutes since school was out and the place was already packed, I was surprised. bought a bag of chips with Tofu and then headed to Burrito Express. he bought some Nachos. met up with Huy, Jesse, Mark and we just chilled. Khoa came with Thomas, waited for Deangelo and along came Madingding. went to school picked up babe and Jennifer. Jennifer and Khoa are supposedly going to Homecoming together, kind of like a blind date set up thing. it was nice, we went to Fish N Grill. good place, discovered by Andy and myself. it was good, we ate, chilled, clowned on Madingding. after they bounced, Khoa, Jennifer, Babe and myself were chilling, went to Rite Aid, baby got her favorite candy. after 10 minutes or so of asking eachother "where to?" "where do you wanna go?!" we decided to go to Laneview. I miss that place, the elementary school in which I met most of my life long homies. chilled there, babe explored around, allowed Jennifer and Khoa to get better acquainted. after we got dropped off at school, walked Jennifer part way and then we headed to babe's house. I needed to finish up some Math homework. and then she walked me part way, waited at Nob Hill got picked up and yeee. Babe called awhile back, told me she just got home and alla that. <3

*that was just amazing. I mean I would think about it when we talk about it, but never imagined that it would be like that, I honestly wanna see what else we could do when that night comes, memorable, you want it just as bad as I do baby.

>5 more days.