Whoops

Thanksgiving, was two days ago didn't do much, family came over, went around with Dat got some games and all that junk. Chilled with family, and the fun started around 12? Black Friday. It wasn't so great, long as lines from the Freeway to each exit, and there wasn't even much to get -____-. Long lines in the stores, there were even long lines where Wretzel Pretzel was, zamn man. I didn't get to the mall until lke 1:20 or something, hella gay. Met up with Boss, she wasn't having too nice of a day, hella people, rude, stuffy, no room, so we just left and went to chill at Cataldi, and Townsend. I dropped her off and then got a called Jonathan if they still needed a ride, felt bad so I went back picked up Jesse, Jonathan, Huy, and Anthony, dropped them off and then rushed home.

Yesterday, Khoa and Michael came over, we went to Great Mall, I picked up a new basketball and a chain net! I love the sound of the chains swishing maaaan. We went to Barcode after, chilled got some drinks then headed home to play some 21. I, again, won but this time it was 2/3 games. Got into bed around 10, and Beb didn't come home until 12ish, she went shopping at San Franchesco. Mark Cayabyab told me about his Black Friday trip, haha hope you get some massive amounts of rest dude. Black Friday wasn't as great, just totally overrated.

That was loud and stupid

Had a rather productive day today. Woke up early, went with my dad to the old house and did some productive work. Went home around 2-ish, Pie Cwust called, talked to her for a quick minute or 45. She bounced, then Khoa and Michael called, chilled with them, went to The Cheese-Steak shop. Chilled there for a bit, then went to Frozos. They had Hawaiian Delight! YEEEEE. Then went home, played an intense game of 21. I won all three, with my deadly jumpers :D. Michael was the lay-up fiend, and Khoa was the flashy all around player. We then went to Adobe Park to chill, and Michael shot the "Blue Thunder" which was mistaken to be a Roman Candle, shit was loud as craaazy. Walked back Khoa was all like, "Wtf, that wasn't a Roman Candle, that shit was Loud and Stupid." hahaha, it obviously wasn't, sounded like a gun =X. It was a nice day. I smell though. Eh, I'll shower next year =).

I found some pictures of when Tofu, Jesse, Jonathan, Andrew, Michael, Albert and his homies went to Jack in the Box. Butt load of 2 for $0.99 tacos!


Chyeeeuhhh Man




Some randoms.



^Trouble Maker.

Solid Foundation

Chilled with Mark Cayabyab, haven't kicked it with the guy for awhile. Walked to his house afterschool, pretty nice man, then walked back to school, went to the Hip Hop Club workshop for a bit, then walked back to the spot. Chilled then went to chill with the boss. It was crazy cold, =\


Maybe we've been brought down to see if we're able to rebuild ourselves again. We're gonna try, but this time, we're gonna do it right. Ground rules are gonna need to be set. Compromises, pet peeves will be established. No more making the same mistake twice. We'll do the same, but better, because now we know. But we're not gonna hop back to our original state right away, we're slowly, going to take one step at a time. This is my last endeavor. Not easily released, not for me. At least we're gonna know wsup though. Slowly, one step at a time.

Ngo

If you're wondering whether or not it's okay, ask yourself. Would you be okay with it if he/she did that? or felt that way? If no, then don't do it. Treat him/her the way you'd wanna be treated. Haha, something like that.

Words of Wisdom

It's not what you say that defines you, it's the things you do.

Interpret that, people can say a whole bunch of shit, people can say this, people can say that, but in the end it's your actions that defines who you are. You can say the nicest things in the world, but the things you do are what people remember. So instead of saying shit, think about what you're doing.

I know, we're not at the highest point, where both of us are happy, but I still don't understand how it's so easy for you just to give up and let go. That's why I wrote what I did in the notebook. But thanks, last night, for "calling it a night" unlike me, I probably would've made things worse.. I'm sure I didn't want to go through another fight again, sorry for the way I say things.


"we're fighting this war when both of us are losing -- we're falling to this place where you ain't backin' down, and I ain't backin' down, so what the hell do we do now -- but we won't let it go for nothing, nothing, nothing, to a love like what we got oh baby,"

Mindset

I guess after going to Usana, I've realized some things. Well, quite a lot if you ask me. I'm just beginning to see things more differently now. The vibe you portray affects the people who you are surrounded by. So, if you act that way, things will come to you that way. If you want it for good reasons, it will come to you in a good way, but if you act sour and rotten towards it, it will come back to you that way. In life, you can have whatever you want, all you gotta do is try, pursue it, just want it, but dedicate yourself to it, don't give up. You only give up when you no longer have any hope or faith. I can relate what I've realized to almost everything. How I act, towards my family, my friends, my girlfriend. Maybe if I didn't sound like I didn't wanna be there when I really did, people wouldn't get that impression. Now I know what you mean when you say that I act different, or that I make you frustrate because of the way I sound. That's why, I'm learning to appreciate what I have, rather than caring so much about what I don't, rather than pointing out the things that look bad or seem to be bad, why not appreciate the things that look good, or the things that you have that others don't. Things don't come easy, if you want to keep it bad enough, you'll fight for it, no matter how many times a problem comes your way. I'll still fight, best believe that, I won't give it up. Don't let all the problems, and drama drown your vision, don't let it stop you from seeing through it. I look passed everything, I look pass the problems, frustration, uncertainty, and all those doubts, and see what is truly wonderful. Us at our best. If I can't take you at your worst, I don't deserve to see you at your best. And it's the same with you. You don't appreciate something until it's gone. And that's why I give myself time, everyday to appreciate and think about the things I have. If you don't appreciate it, you won't have it anymore. I'll bring down my selfish pride, put aside my ego, I'll listen and change for the better. Yeah, it's random. I've been thinking about it though, maybe if I'm more positive about things, we wouldn't be in so many fights, and everything would be so much better. Realize it. I did.

This is my first weekend without her, she's at camp. And I miss her already...don't tell her I said that though.

Screw^

I know, I always mess up. I need to learn from it. But I've realized, that both you and I mean too much to eachother, I know, the things I tend to say are hard to believe, and you think that I just say it because that's what I feel at the time. But I'm not the type of guy who would say something to life your spirits only for that time. I've told you that I'll hold on, I've told you that I'm not letting you go, not letting us go. And I haven't done so, not only because I've told you I wasn't going to, but because I refuse to. I understand that we have problems, and we fight, but the ever will I result in us splitting. US is what I go by. US is what I go for. US is my motivation, US makes me happy. You make me happy, and I'm sorry if I ever take you for granted. I know at any given moment, if you wanted to leave you would've. Our relationship is no obligation, that's been understood already. We're here because we both want to. It's never because we feel we have to. And yknow, I'm sorry if I call you babe, or baby, at the wrong times, but yknow. Through thick and thin, ups and downs, no matter what...you still and always will be my baby. That's why I say it, just because we're on bad terms, it doesn't mean you're not anymore. That's my mindset. We've been through a lot, I wouldn't lie to myself, and I wouldn't lie about how I feel to you. I just need to be more open when it comes to things that bother me. I just need to learn to do that. I just need to. You told me that you didn't want me to let go, and I don't want you to either. I still believe that. trUSt.


Cherish these things. Don't take them for granted. Appreciate it. I don't want to realize this only when bad things happen, we should always realize this.

Learned to Appreciate

Yesterday was IHS' Homecoming. It was alright, went with the girlfriend, Brian and Rose, and Phong. Mariel came over after I showered and found my dress shirt, we chilled for a bit, and then Brian came by with Phong. We then went to Rose's house to give her dress to her and all that. After, we switched cars and then headed to McDonalds because they were hungry. After that we took off to Inde, we were just standing outside, getting ready to go in, and then all of the sudden I felt something drop on my head, and right before my eyes it started pouring hella bad, we all just ran into the car and sat there. After, we took off and went in line, we cutted =X got our stamps and all that and then headed inside. I saw Mino/Amy, Sarah, Jessica, Jenniphher, Eidref, Leo, Annie, Brian, Klein, Tommy, BigHead, Madingding, Chris Soriano and Thomas and some other heads. It was cool, at first no one danced, and like after half an hour or so there was like a mob of people dancing so we joined. It was alright. We then met up, it was pretty cold, headed to Rose's house again, she changed, switched cars, and then headed to Rose's restaurant to drop off the car, and then headed to Denny's. Babe and I shared a Western Burger w/
Seasoned Fries, and a side of Onion Rings. They gip you on Onion Rings, gave us hella little. Brian and Rose got like Meat Lovers breakfast, looked pretty crazy. We just chilled, Phong bounced, and then yeah. We were just playing with camera's, because Brian and Rose picked up an XSI, hella nice, the LCD screen is hella big compared to my XT's. It was cool, we then dropped off babe, then headed to drop me off. Thanks again guys. It was nice chillin with them again after so long, but those nigs have been busy with work.

Today, I woke up around 12, went downstairs and like always, no one was home, I played GTA IV, babe called, talked to her, Mom, Molly, and Kym came home, brought in stuff from the car, then went back up to bed. Laid in there, talked to babe, went downstairs for dinner around 5-6, then went to Mervyns, didn't get home until 8ish, got home, showered, and now I'm here. We have school tomorrow, and then no school Tuesday -____-, they should just give us Monday off too.


The Married Couple!

& This is MY Pie Crust=).


I'm hella not white.


"Can I get a smawwshing?" HAHAHA

Everything and more

Guess what? Today is our 7 Months. We've made it this far. I'm proud, I refuse to let it go. I woke up early today, school was alright, in third I gave Babe an album, an incomplete one, that is needed to be finished. I put pictures of us in it, and an untied bracelet that was made of both of the colors from our old one. Fourth was cool, Lunch was alright, Babe showed me the dress that she was wearing to Inde's Homecoming Saturday, it looks nice. Fifth we had a test, and then I spent the rest of the period writing in our Notebook. Sixth was alright, it was lay back like usual. After school, chilled for about an hour waiting for Baby to finish her meeting. Brian, and Jenniphher called. Thanks for the help guys, I'm glad to know that they're there when I need help, I got you guys too. But after I ended up walking around, she called around 4:14 or so, we met up, walked to Pomeroy and just chilled. At least we got to spend an hour together. She wanted to head home, so we walked there, dropped her off then I went to Nob Hill and just waited for my mom.


Dear Babylove,
Today is our 7 Months, and I'd just like to say how thankful I am that we've made it this far, how thankful I am that we've fought and never given up on what we wanted and have believed in, how thankful I am that I have you, and how thankful I am that I didn't let go even when everything seemed to be at it's worst. Through ups and downs, thick and thin, worst and best times, I know I'll be fine, as long as I got you. Who knew 7 months, that you who was known for not being able to maintain a relationship for longer than 3 months, and me, a guy who didn't seem to be relationship capable, lasted, and went beyond expectations. We pulled through when all hope seemed to be lost, even when one of us was almost sure of not wanting any of this anymore, we pulled through, we held on, and we made it. Baby, we got this. I don't want anyone else, there is no one else for me, but you. My One&Only, My baby,beb,babe,babylove,gorilla,baboon,elephant. It doesn't matter what, as long as you're mine. I don't wanna be alone, I just wanna be with you. 10 minutes > a whole day. Be&Stay with me. You&Me babe. From mines to yours. We've seen eachother at our worst, and we've seen eachother at our best. It's just the beginning babe. I don't have much to say, it's just an incredible feeling. To 7 Months and many, many, many more to come. I love you, Happy 7 Months.
Yours always
Christopher Ngo

Check[ed]

We were finally able to accomplish a long awaited task on our "Things to do" list. I woke up early, well not really, talked to Babe until 9 or so, she left, finished up her homework and I got outta bed. Washed up, cleaned the bathroom, and then went downstairs to play GTA IV. It's pretty interesting, Babe called around 12:50 and told me she was going to get ready, so I was to. I met her up around 1:30 or so and then we went to the bus stop. Bus 66 was seen many times haha, we had a lot of false alarms for incorrect buses. Bus 47 was iffy, we didn't know if it would take us to Great Mall so we didn't trust it. We ended up hopping on Bus 46. Got to the Mall, bought the tickets, and then went to grab some grub. Decided on Pizza at Sbarro. I got the Baked Ziti Combo. It was pretty good, we saw Kevin, Kevin, and Corey. Babe saw some of her friends too. We ate, walked around for a bit, went into Spencers before the movie. I noticed, that everytime we went a mall together, we always went into Spencers, haha. The movie started at 4:10, we made it with enough time to spare. Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist was a nice movie. I was satisfied, got to eat, watch a movie, and be with Babe. After we walked to the Bus Stop, got on, got to Nob Hill around 6:40ish, walked her home and then waited for my mom to pick me up. We went to Walgreens, Babe called, I got home and ate a little bit. Tomorrow's school -___-, BUT it's also OUR 7 Months <3 YAY. Hopefully we'll get to spend some time together.

Rained, one time

It rained like mad today. but I had a pretty nice day. Babe's candy got me all loud in 3rd period. Doing Calligraphy in 2nd, 1st is just laid back, chill. 4th period was easy, 5th was cool, and 6th was usual, deliver and then doing whatever for the rest of the day. Homecoming pictures came in, she said she didn't like ours, I didn't think it was so bad. Lunch was pretty funny, Huy was hella mumbling about how we were going to be sent to Concentration Camps because we were people who didn't play an important role or didn't contribute to Society. I guess people were buzzing about YFC Camp too, and like we were just hella clowning on it. "Are you going to YFC Camp?!" Jonathan, Jesse and Me were all like, YFC? Youth For Concentration Camps?! We told Huy, and everyone hella started screaming hahahaha, hella funny, nothing serious though. Met up with Babe after, went to her locker, then bathroom, L-Building bathrooms are clean :D. She showed me the Homecoming pictures and yee. Afterschool was cool, chilled with the Brothas for a quick second, then met up with Babe. Went to her locker, Nob Hill to grub, and then to school. It started raining, first time being with her during that weather. I've been with her in the blazing heat, during windy days, cloudy, starry nights, but never in the rain. There's a first for everything. She left, then I waited for my mom to pick me up. Saw C-Dawg, just strolling around with her little umbrella, told him to come over because he was tryna go eat. He came over, ate some burritos with chips, and then he wanted to play Rock Band, he turned it on then his brother came. I waited with him outside and then he got picked up, always got you when you need it man. Baby called to check up, made sure I was home, haha tryna be cute, it was nice. I gotta call her in a minute. <3

At my worst & my best

I know it. You know it. How long it has been to just give up. It's not an option for me, nor has it ever crossed my mind. Maybe it's because I just know that we'll get through it, one way or the other. You've become more than just my girlfriend. But my better half. That's why I've been reading our notebook so much lately, that last page you wrote, just made me realize it more. That from day one, it's been you and me. All the corny things I say and do, it's amazing, that I'm not the only one that feels that way, heart-warming, tingly sensation everytime you're next to me. I don't wanna know what it's gonna be like without you. We're a team, and from this, we'll get stronger, we'll pull through, and it's gonna be us. I'm not scared to admit anything, I'll say it, I won't deny my feelings. It's real, I'm in love. Couples have fights, some end in worse ways than others. Some lose hope, some lose sight of everything, but look, we've been through more ups and downs than can be imagined, and look, look at where we are. I'm still sure, never doubted it. She's my everything and more. 040608, MarielAshleySoriano on mines. "Are you happy?" Yes...with you. I have your heart, you have my heart, had it from the start, nothing's gonna tear that apart.

Brothas,man.

Reflection

Well, I made a mistake. Who doesn't, I know what I did, I know what not to do in the future, and here I thought you would've been able to understand. I sat for an hour at that park by your house, same place I was at. Sitting there, just thinking. I don't blame you for being disappointed, I understand it.
Went trick or treating with Molly after, explored the neighborhood, it started to rain so we walked home.

Dad woke me and Hung up, we had to go run some errands. Went to eat, then to the old house. Haven't been there in a long while, it's a lot nicer now. Went to various kitchen supply warehouses to pick up some marble tops. After we went to the Post Office, I had to pick up some stuff. Gloomy days, I enjoyed standing outside though, it was nice.

Sorry for getting you guys involved..

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