think it over, time

she told me, that the feelings she once had, the feelings that she had that allowed us to get where we were are fading, slowly being lost. I told her I still felt the same, I didn't want to give up easily, I wanted to know if we were really strong enough to take on anything together. she told me things changed, "I told you from the very beginning. things are bound to change, changes will occur." I guess I just neglected that fact because I didn't want anything to change. changes wouldn't matter to me, as long as nothing changed between us. but I guess I wasn't living in reality. I didn't know what to do when she told me that was was starting to slip. I didn't know what to say, I didn't know what there was left for me to do. I told her that in my past, that if the other would say that they were loosing feelings, I'd just say ok, fine, done. get up and leave, but I can't do that with her. I can't bare the feeling of knowing that in the mere future, she's not gonna be mine anymore. what do you want me to do? whatever happened to compromising? I'm learning in the process too yknow. she said she needs time, I'll give her all the time she needs. I told her that I'd still be here to after, that as of now my feelings haven't ever been so sure. and normally, you would think, after finding out your girlfriend or boyfriend told you that they have lost feelings you would consider doing the same, and both of you would slowly start giving up. but I haven't. I have not let go of my feelings. "so you're just gonna sit and watch me leave..?" what else can I do? I don't want that to happen, I never sat down and asked myself what would I do if you were to leave. I didn't wanna think about it, knowing that hey, it might happen. I neglected that fact, and never took into consideration what I would do. I wanted to show her that here is where I wanna be, that she's who I wanna be with. stay with, stick with, be with. but I guess I'm the only one feeling that way now. I'm not tryna tell you that I'm going to give up, but if you are loosing what you once felt, think about it. what would be so great, that I, Chris Ngo could be able to do that would make you think otherwise? you know what you're doing, you can think for yourself. I just wanna let you know that I'd still be here. that's all.

take what you need.